This year has been the toughest year for me so far, in the last 2 years.
Aside from the pandemic, the cancelled shows, and all other unexpected things that had happened…
This one was the one that crushed me the most – personally.
I got injured.
And it was not just “injured, but I can still train like usual.”
I got injured to the point I couldn’t pick up the bar at all.
You know what it felt like?
It felt like losing my identity. As an athlete, a high performer, as someone who has trained religiously her whole life…
It felt like losing access to myself…
Losing a big part of my life.
And I was really down.
For a while, I just let myself feel down.
Until I had the energy again to tune in and focus:
What is this experience teaching me?
What’s the best thing I CAN do at this moment?
To stay humble?
I tried my best.
To be more compassionate with myself?
It has forced me to take a deeper commitment to my self-care.
And right now, I feel grateful for that experience.
I’ve learned to be more resourceful.
To have a more loving relationship with myself.
And it shows.
I’ve been able to sit comfortably with the physique I have now, eating a tonne of food, getting back to training with intensity, being social, and just really enjoying my progress.
But I must admit…
I didn’t achieve this on my own.
I wouldn’t be able to practise this level of resilience if I didn’t have this one thing in my life…
A home for resourceful women who powerfully support one another…
Through setbacks and breakthroughs…
In our quest for greatness…
In our quest for lifelong transformation and personal mastery…
Each of us are committed to each other’s ongoing and never-ending growth…
So we can stay with our spirit.
SMP is only for the hardest worker in the room.
Is it time to come home?
Love and light,