This week I compete for the WBFF World Title in Las Vegas.
I have never been more focused in my life and I have never had so many powerful reflections on life and success and happiness.
I have been sharing them in a video log for my girls in The Sports Model Project and I wanted to share this with you today.
It's really important to be conscious of your state.
Your mental state your energy,
how you stay connected to yourself,
how you stay connected to others,
how you stay connected to your purpose.
Do you know what you are here to do?
I have been working hard on a re-branding of the Sports Model Project and it's made me think, what is the Sports Model Project?
What are we about?
What do we do?
Who are we as a community, as a team, as individuals, as coaches, as clients, as friends?
When I think about my purpose in life it's simple:
"Be A Bright Shining Light
With my energy, with my love, with myself, with friends, with family, with my work, with the Sports Model Project.
And then on the other side, I have these other purposes of being the hardest worker in the room, being a lion and then also being playful.
If I think about how do I stay in a beautiful state
or how do I be in state for each part of my life, jhow does each focus get the right energy it can be a little tough!
How can I be all those things at once?
That's where I go back to I guess what my purpose is, what my passion is.
This morning, in the last week I've been a little bit tired.
I'm not going go lie. I'm so close but so far.
I realised those parts in my day where I wasn't smiling or you know I would ride past people and I wouldn't say hello and I felt that this maybe wasn't really me and I was like,
"Just be a shining light"
That's what I said to myself.
How do you be a shining light?
Say hi to everyone.
You know you're out riding your bike, it's beautiful day, the air is warm and I just consciously put myself back into that state.
So every morning that I ride out early,
and the only people that are around are the workers that have been sleeping on the ground, I make sure I say hello to every single person.
I literally say,
"Hola volunteers" (I live in Mexico right now)
To everyone; everyone that goes past me, whether they're on a car, whether they're on a bike, whether they're walking
and you know to them it might be like,
"Oh this is weird."
But to me I think, well...
This is how I could brighten someone's day.
I'm being a shining light.
I'm saying hello to people that probably don't get to said hello to by that many people or are always just the men at the work sites and are being told what to do all day.
Then, when I go to social media or even just going about my day I'm being that shining light and I always find that if I'm able to shine, I can allow others to do the same.
When Michelle's feeling down, I can shine my light on her. I can make her warm.
I can pull her out of a state and that's what I've been doing and I'm allowing her to shine bright. And you know, you can take on this same thing.
If you want to be a shining light, be a shining light!
When you allow yourself to shine, when you give yourself permission to shine, you allow others to shine as well because your energy is going to touch someone else.
Now if I flip over to my other motto which is be the hardest worker in the room, it's a very different energy but that energy serves me a purpose, right?
It's a strong energy and I always say, I've got no yin, I'm all yin no yang or I think it might be all yang no ying.
But actually, if I think about myself and my energies, and what I wear my two,
I guess the things that I say to myself constantly would either
"Be a shining light" or "Be the hardest worker in the room. "
Those two energies are balanced.
One's yin and one's yang.
And this is what I teach you girls, know when push, know when to pull; know when to be playful, know when to be strong and disciplined.
You know I also think of myself as a feline, you know I'm a lion when I need to be a lion.
"Oh the Lions coming"
When it comes to a stage, when it comes to hunting, when it comes to being in the gym, I'm a lion. I'm there. I'm on a mission. I'm hunting. I'm hungry.
Then when I'm not in the gym,
I also need to allow myself to be playful.
I need to be a pussycat.
I call myself a pussycat you know
and it's that push and pull of energies that we need to tap into, masculine and feminine.
I always know when I'm being too much of one, because the other one falls behind, I feel out of balance.
When I'm too hard, I feel overwhelmed or I feel a little off. When I'm too playful, I get a little anxious that I haven't done enough.
We need to have both.
We need to know when to be hard.
We need to know when to be soft.
We need to know when to nurture ourselves.
We need to know when to be disciplined on ourselves.
We need to know when we are being too hard on ourselves.
Have you been too hard on yourselves or are you being too soft?
I teach all my girls in The Sports Model Project to find this balance.
All the good things are in this middle place.
This is where confidence lies, this is where you feel supremely sexy,
this is where the growth happens it's also where transformation happens.
Being soft, being hard; being playful, being disciplined that's my reflection of the morning.
So whats happened since I really pushed to put myself back and
said "you know what, just be a shining light"?
It's allowed me to be soft in my nature when I'm not in the gym.
It's allowed me to be a little bit more playful.
It's allowed me to be a bit kinder to myself,
to be more playful in my posing, to enjoy my posing more.
You know, saying hi to people on the street.
I love seeing hi to people, I talk to anyone.
It's really, really nice and so you know when you are going about your day
and you're so up in your head and you've got a stern look in your face
and you get to work you realize you haven't even smiled yet?
I want you snap yourself out of it.
I want you to start to be playful.
I want you to start to be your own shining light.
Because when you allow yourself to shine bright,
you also allow others to do the same.
Light and loving kindness