“If I fail even once, that means I’m a failure.”
I didn’t want to be a beginner.
I didn’t want to fail.
“I’m a high performer”
“I’m a high achiever”
And I used to think that to be those things,
I should never fail.
So I kept punishing myself…
And my successes started to mean nothing too.
This was after winning the World Championships, by the way.
I felt lost and like I was going backwards at the peak of my career success.
This is what happens when you’re only focused on:
The next win,
And the next win,
And the next win…
And punishing yourself for your failures along the way.
But I realised something:
High standards without compassion is just self-bullying.
I was doing my best.
And “doing my best” wasn’t some cop-out excuse for not doing better.
(I see you high achievers)
When I started to live in the present,
I realised just how often I was living in this land,
Where someday I’d feel better about myself.
Instead of right now.
So I worked on it and learned to:
- have a beginner’s mindset.
- let myself learn.
- fail forward.
I am proud to say that: I’m loving all parts of myself.
Though I still have a lot of things to work on.
Like you, I’m human.
(I promise. Not a robot. I have emotions too. ;-))
But this is the beauty of being a beginner.
It allows you to stay grounded while being in a healthy competition with yourself.
But now, I have learned to live up to the highest standards of self-compassion.
To recognise failure as an opportunity to learn and progress.
To acknowledge my weaknesses and work on them.
So I can be a bright shining light.
And as I let my shine brighter, I give others space to do the same.
And I want to see YOU to do the same.
Are you ready to take the route to mastery?
And grow physically and spiritually?
Are you ready to become your own champion?
The Sports Model Project is a community of resourceful women powerfully supporting one another.
And it’s only for the hardest worker in the room.
Love and light,
SMP Coaching Team